I’ve been scarce, lately. No post since Monday, and I’ve not been reading any blogs, either. In fact, I’ve barely been on the computer. I haven’t exactly gone missing but it kind of feels like it. So, here’s what’s going on….
…as in, Monday I have an MRI scheduled for my lower back. It’s getting increasingly worse. Acupuncture has not helped; in fact, it seems to make my back feel even more angry. I’ve been rotating between walking and laying down. I can’t sit for more than 5 minutes at a time (unless I’m pretty medicated) and standing still is impossible. So, I’m either walking on the treadmill at a slow but steady pace or I’m on the floor doing yoga stretches. This has made my time in the studio very challenging. I can’t paint and walk at the same time so I’m doing very short but furious bursts in between. Not an easy task. Still, I did manage to finish this little guy:
I went to the doctor yesterday and there may be a change in my diagnosis of degenerative disc disease. He used words like bulging and/or ruptured disc. I asked him point-blank whether the excess weight in my younger days could have contributed to my condition. Of course he couldn’t answer this with complete certainty but he assured me that if I were still carrying around those extra 100+ pounds I could likely be completely immobile right now. This brings me to something I cannot stress enough: don’t abuse your body. Respect every aspect of it, because It has to serve you the rest of your life.
Minus the Mister:
Tomorrow, my husband and I were supposed to be heading to Arizona to visit his sister. I had to make the difficult decision to give up my ticket. Sitting that long is an impossibility for me. This was not an easy choice, but it’s the only answer for me if I want to protect my back from further irritation. Besides, couldn’t you just see me in Arizona and then have my back go out? I mean yes, there are worse things than being stuck in Arizona but what a nightmare that would be! After a long discussion, I convinced my husband to go without me. At least one ticket will be used and honestly, he really needs to get to a warmer climate for a few days. Working outside in this single digit weather can be unbelievably draining. So, it looks like I’m going to be a bachelorette for a few days.
As part of my decision to continue with my Gratitude Jar, it has become easier to find things to be grateful about even when I could feel sorry for myself for having another health crisis less than a year after major surgery. Since walking eases my pain, it’s been a breeze maintaining my weight. Chronic pain kind of takes away my appetite, anyway. I can’t imagine what it would be like if I were completely unable to move. I swear I’ll never again complain about my ‘dreadmill’. It has literally saved my sanity.
All right folks, I’m outta here for now. Be good to yourself this weekend and I’ll see you back here sometime next week.