Reclaim what is mine.
Did you all have a great holiday yesterday? Anyone get any snow for Christmas? We did not, however since this is Indiana, I’m sure that we will soon have more than we can handle.
I found the jar that I’m going to use for our HL Challenge exercise in January. Now all I need to do is cut out some slips of paper and gather a couple of pens so I’m not spending all of my time looking for things to write with/on.
I’ve been mentally preparing for this exercise by practicing gratitude in my mind but am finding its not the same. I need to go through the act of physically writing it down and putting it somewhere that I can see it. Physical reminders are so important and can give instant positive feedback. Plus, just thinking about what I’m grateful for ends up leading to thoughts of needing to fill up my bird feeders, brush the dogs, clean house, etc. Not the best use of this exercise. So, yes – I’m looking forward to starting my Gratitude Jar.
Yesterday was Christmas. Even though my morning started out well, things quickly changed as the day progressed. I ended up in a very bad place emotionally by mid afternoon and found myself quickly wishing for the holiday to be over. Forgive me for not going into detail, here. Some things are just better left unwritten. I will say that while I thought I’d set boundaries in place I realized by the end of the night that I will need to take things a step further. If a family member causes havoc every holiday it’s more than reasonable to want to remove oneself from distress, but the real trick I’m finding is being strong enough to follow through. I grew lax this year, hoping things would get better, when clearly they only worsened.
I never again want to be put in the position of spending another holiday feeling anxious and sad. My husband and I have agreed that if certain conditions aren’t met next year, we’re packing up and taking a vacation over the holidays. Either way, I’m taking back my holidays.
The thing about going to bed sad is that you almost always wake up in a funk as well, so this gal is signing off and heading straight for the treadmill. I’m on week 4 of C25K and I think if I run fast enough, I’ll be able to leave this sorrow far behind.
Gratitude – I’m grateful for the opportunity to outrun a heavy heart. Or at the very least, make myself too tired to care.
**I will have an official overview of January’s Challenge THIS FRIDAY. If you’re participating, you wont want to miss it. See you then.