Once, Twice, Three times upside the head
I know you’ve done it before, too. You’re reading blogs and you come across one that seems as though it was written specifically for you. That happened to me when I sat down to read my friend Kyra’s blog last night over at The Never ending Adventures. This was a milestone post because she unveiled a painting that she’d been working on since April. Yes, April. A painstakingly intricate, detailed labor of love that is now, finally complete.
Kyra and I have communicated about this painting and other goings on in our lives, with one of us always wishing that certain things would just ‘happen already!’ But we both know from experience that anything worth doing is worth doing right. What struck a chord with me was this particular sentence:
How many things in our lives are we not giving permission to ourselves to spend the proper time on?
I think if I had a secret decoder I could wave it over that sentence and find an underlying message that reads: Ellen, you big Goofball, why are you constantly fighting yourself? You’ve already been down this road once – have you learned nothing? (although Kyra would find a much gentler way of telling me, I’m sure of it).
I have been through this before. I took the slow and steady route of losing weight. The many years it took to lose over 100 pounds was the correct way for me and my life and I haven’t regretted it once. In fact, taking my time and doing it slowly and naturally has, in part, been what’s helped me keep it off for over 7 years.
But, since my surgery? Yeah, you’d never know that patiently devoted person ever existed. I have been having internal battles with myself for the past 4 months. I’ve been at war with my body to heal faster; anxious for my new business to pick up speed; desperate to find direction and get moving already!!
I’ve been so caught up in the ‘want it NOW’ mentality that I haven’t been appreciating the slow and steady route I’ve been granted which, by the way, has always proven to be the better choice for me. (Sometimes a good thwack across the head is the only thing that will reset the brain). Any takers? lol
This week I’ve learned that no matter how quickly we want results, it just isn’t likely going to happen on our schedule. Whether it be the desire for business success, weight loss or in my case in particular right now: physical strength. We do what we can and have to let time run its course because really, we have no other choice.
I received doctor results from my visit last week regarding my extreme fatigue. Surgical menopause patients (those who go through the process surgically rather than naturally) are hit with the usual symptoms all at once instead of easing into it the old fashioned way. As a result, we can go through radical side effects. My fatigue is a direct result of my hormones being shifted so quickly and dramatically. The doctor has given me new medication and I am praying to the Estrogen Goddesses that I will see improvement within a few weeks. In the meantime, it’s slow and steady – and that’s all there is to it. I must be willing to look at the progresses I HAVE made instead of the ones that will come in due time. And really, if I want to be completely honest with myself – if my art business was a raging success like I dream about in my mind, I’d be too fatigued to keep up with it all right now, wouldn’t I?
Speaking of art, here is this week’s painting. I have been posting progress photos on my Facebook Fan page because I’ve found that not only do people like to see the creative process behind the finished piece, but it’s good for me to see that it takes patience and hard work to evolve into a beautiful and worthwhile sense of completion. I think we can all relate to that on some level.
…and speaking of art: My friend Laura, who is another weight loss maintainer and an amazing athlete is holding a giveaway on her blog beginning today, AND she is giving away one of my enhanced art prints! Head on over there to check it out the details! You can find her fabulous blog over at Laura Lives Life.
Have a great weekend, everyone. I hope it’s slow and steady