I have this repetitive saying going off in my mind. It’s been there all day: Scary but Necessary. Scary but Necessary. The word vulnerable keeps popping up, too.
If you’ve been reading this blog for very long then you know I am a creature of habit. I tend to eat the same things over and over. I like routine. In other words, I like the idea of controlling this little world of mine. But the past couple of months have forced me to look at my life differently. I can’t always dig in my heels whenever something goes awry or something different happens. Sometimes I need to go with the flow and just stay the heck out of life’s way as it takes care of business. This of course, is easier said than done.
Making the decision to do the article in Woman’s Day Magazine was not an easy one. At first I thought, Well, it’s not much different than when someone reads one of my blog posts, is it? Well, yes and no. First of all, I didn’t write this article whereas I write what’s on my blog. When I agreed to the article I was asked a series of questions and I answered them; then someone else built the story of my life and declared it worthy of space in the magazine. Honestly, you and I will be reading it for the first time together. Letting go and trusting that things will work out is something that I continue to struggle with, but if I say no to everything that’s different or not within my comfort zone, how will I ever know what I’m capable of?
Which leads me to the second thing that I’m feeling vulnerable about. This morning I officially went Live with my Etsy shop. In a way, it felt like giving my ‘baby’ away for someone else to hold. For over a month I’ve been painting, snapping photos, writing, and learning about how NOT to fail when running a business. Running a business. Talk about vulnerability! How do you explain to your mother that you are not going to look for another job right away, instead trying to support yourself from home? The answer? Steer her question away from you with another question, like ‘So, how did you sleep last night? Feeling good today?’ For now, that seems to be working but for how long, I don’t know.
Honestly, I probably could have opened up shop before now, but I kept putting it off. Mainly, because I was scared to death to put myself out there; to try something new. Even if that something might end up being a good thing. Have you ever felt like that?
In the end though, I did it. And by the way – as you’re reading this, know that you are participating in my virtual ribbon-cutting ceremony. Thank you for being here for it. If you’d like to visit, click on the mini-store link at the top left side of my blog or click over from here: Pieces Designs on Etsy
It’s been a difficult year, but sometimes even pretty things can grow in the most stressful environments.
Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in.
Thanks for reading today.